| It's late and i'm bored. and I know I've almost completely deserted xanga.
for myspace & facebook. womp womp.
anyway, I feel like an update so let's go for it shall we?
I was looking back on some old old old old posts, and wow I basically used this back then for anything and everything and now I don't use it at all. But whatever here goes nothing. An update of everything that's gone on. By the look of things, I update randomly btwn 2005 and now O7 so let me recap. A LOT. First off, my family's still great and amazing and everything I could ever wish for. I love them more than life itself. Their crazy and fun. And just everything my personality ended up being comes from them. I owe my parents the world, because they've given me so much in the past years. <3. I can only imagine how good it'd feel to finally give back to them. They're the best. My cousins well, they are just my absolute best best best best best friends, and I love them all to death. And wow I can't believe how much we've grown up. Moments with them just seem to always be RANDOM and THE BEST. I can never thank them enough for everything&anything they do for me. From covering my behind ALWAYS, and keeping me grounded always, and making me laugh and just enjoy everything I've got. They own a ridiculously huge amount of my heart. I love my family<3. They've been there from start to finish and I know they always will be. Honestly, their my blessings and my bestfriends, no joke. I would not be able to do the things I want had they not always had my back. Thanks to them I know I can accomplish whatever I set out to do. Oooh oooh. So I graduated last year =) haha. late news, but I'm at MiddlesexCountyCollege doing my prereqs for what I wanna do :] I think my head's straight and I'm more set on my major than I ever have been. I also need to thank my parents for supporting it, even though they might not want it. I know it'll pay off in the end =) I'm excited now I just need to keep up with school =P So leave to annie to make me cry, about sticking with what I plan, and if I do I'll inspire her. Lord give me the strength to keep with this and finish up with what I want. Hmm, regarding previous entries, don't mind them sometimes I need someplace to vent. And this ended up being it because no one really checks it. So I can say whatever and probably won't hurt. Anyway, I've been with Gian Solema<3 for two years now. UPS, DOWNS, AND ALL AROUND CRAZY. "long distance relationships will kill you" - thanks to annie&kim for that quote. But, so far it hasn't. We fight argue break up over stupid things. But, we're still good, still good. Lately, we've been good with keeping up with back and forth flights btwn jersey and arizona to keep things okay. It really isn't the same. And I wish he was here, more than I wish anything else. It sucks in more ways than anyone could imagine. And a lot of the time I wonder why we still subject ourselves to this unending cycle of arizona-jersey dating. It's crazy. it really is. and nothing will ever compare to being able to just be there in person for each other. But, I guess we're willing to deal. Hopefully, this pays off well. For a lot of this relationship, I owe a lot to my amazing family for dealing with me whenever I need to vent, and to my friends who do the craziest things to make time pass quicker, and to his family for accepting me and for everyone's silent support of us. Because, in the beginning we pretty much had no one. Until, we met a crazy old lady who taught us to challenge everything, and to just be happy and enjoy what we have. We're too young for stress. =) And here we are a year and some months he's lived away. and we're gonna be just fine<3. I hope. By the way, I owe him the greatest amount of gratitude because he's kept through so much of my shit. From my crazy mood swings, to my jealousy, to just about everything you can name. Lord knows I am one of thee hardest people to deal with, and he does it. And yes I can push his buttons to points of no return, and vice versa but somehow we keep each other coming back for me. He's truly the only that'll get me the way he does and I couldn't ask for a better lover. It's safe to say, I'm more than comfortable with him taking a part in my future. Thank you, bubba. I'll see you next year<3. |
